The day my wife Cindy died was the darkest day of my life. She died from a very aggressive breast cancer. I lost my faith, and I was angry at God for taking her from me. It's been 12 years since she passed away, everyday has been a struggle. I'ld like to say that things got easier, of course they didn't, that wasn't God's plan for me. I still don't know what that could be and I'm doing my best to figure that out every day. One thing I realized is that God has been with me throughout this lengthy trial, and through all bad times he has held my hand and has spoken words of encouragement. He has loved me, even when I thought I couldn't go on. Like I said, I lost my faith and went down a dark path, I had lost my way and didn't think I would ever make it back. He has blessed me and was waiting with outstretched arms. I know that, that's what saved me. I could feel His arms encircling me, and I could feel His love for me.

I'M m here to tell you, that no one is to far gone for Him to save. He is my savoir and best friend. May God bless all of you who are struggling or are going through your own trials.