My Desire To Heal Was Greater Than My Fear...

By Kirsty Spraggon • February 3, 2015

It's the anniversary of my TEDx talk going live. I can't begin to tell you all the ways that day, month and year have changed my life. The year of X. Cause that is what I used to call my secret. I couldn't even say the word. It was quite a joke by the universe then to have me share it at TedX yes X lol. Sweet divinity in action. I look back now at the girl who stood on that stage and she was still so full of fear of the unknown.

Link to my talk - You're only as sick as your secrets & My pretty lil secret can both be seen here -

http://www.kirstytv.com/i-have-an-std-tedx-talk/

What would happen once she spoke those words. I felt nauseous all day, awaiting the moment. Wondering if the words would come out. For a motivational speaker who finds the words easily this was a tough day. It was the first time I have ever been scared on stage. The funny thing is once I calmed myself the words came. I said all I had hoped to say and more. As I walked off stage the behind the scenes peeps high fived me in a line, one of my close friends came up and hugged me and I wept. We laughed and I said 'well this will either be the bravest thing I have ever done or the stupidist'.

From that 1st moment people came up to me and said 'me too' or shared their own secrets. It has been the single most life changing and life shaping moment of my life. I call it my 'Rebirthday'. Thank you to everyone who encouraged me to share my secret, who inspired me by sharing their truths. Those renegades and emotional nudists blazing the path to a life of authenticity and freedom my KirstyTV guests. You inspired me more than you can ever know.

A year on....I feel lighter, healthier, happier, fuller. My hearts not just full. It's expanded. I am doing my best work on stage ever. I am more vulnerable. My healing has sent out a ripple effect of healing in others and it is a beautiful full circle. The things I feared the most have not come to pass in fact the opposite has happened, my life and business are fuller and richer than ever.

So I will wear the ring I brought myself today. The ring is called my courage ring. I brought it shortly after I gave the talk to remind me that it really was the bravest thing I have ever done, not the stupidist after all.

I encourage anyone who is scared & in the darkness to take a small step to the light, to share your truth in small ways and feel the lightness that begins to fill your soul as I truly believe 'you're only as sick as your secrets' and 'your desire to heal must be greater than your fear.

Love kx

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